I can’t wait for September to be over.

This month has been a long and arduous ride. I have never felt so depleted, helpless and increasingly frustrated with each passing day. I go to work with only a half of my usual daily allowance in my pocket, angry, and then spend the rest of the day in a zombie-like daze. Machines in the house started malfunctioning, my brother’s tuition is due, Dad started feeling weak again and Mom, poor Mom, she seems to be getting sick from all that worrying. Then there’s rent delays w/c is the source of our income, and the land we’re selling keeps getting interefered with.

My grade school history teacher told us once that for some reason, life seems to be harder during September, I thought I was the only one who noticed that. Wake me up when September ends indeed. I hate feeling like this, it’s very tiring. I’m so tired. Very, very tired.

I hope October will be different. Only a few hours to go…

30th of Sep 2014 •   Comments
So it begins.
28th of Sep 2014 •   Comments

All righty then.

I use my right hand to do EVERYTHING: texting, typing, drawing, bitch slappin…every task that involves the use of hands basically, aside from work which requires me to type or click the whole day. There’s bound to be consequences with that much (ab)use, I know — my right forearm is in pain and my wrist feels like it has arthritis (it hurts slightly when it bends). I fear that these are early indications of carpal tunnel syndrome which is a big fat no no. I guess I have to practice my left to do more tasks, it does feel underused. CTS is scary if not dealt with accordingly.

27th of Sep 2014 •   Comments

Mesmerizing cinemagraphs by Strasbourg, France-based freelancer Julien Douvier.

27th of Sep 2014 •   Comments
Short haired Korra yo! She did the thing too! And by the looks of it, the Earth Kingdom seems to be the antagonists of this (final) season. I’m so excited!

Short haired Korra yo! She did the thing too! And by the looks of it, the Earth Kingdom seems to be the antagonists of this (final) season. I’m so excited!

27th of Sep 2014 •   Comments

I’ve learned that if a person can go to you and say things about another person so easily, know that he/she can do the same thing behind your back.

27th of Sep 2014 •   Comments
Posting this in case you’ve forgotten what I look like (◉ᴗ◉✿) A few days from now, my bangs’ gonna swoop and stick up on its on and I don’t have to use product on it anymore. Hurray for flyaways. (If you look closely you will notice that I have added an extra layer of eyebags. For science.) Hello!

Posting this in case you’ve forgotten what I look like (◉ᴗ◉✿) A few days from now, my bangs’ gonna swoop and stick up on its on and I don’t have to use product on it anymore. Hurray for flyaways. (If you look closely you will notice that I have added an extra layer of eyebags. For science.) Hello!

25th of Sep 2014 •   Comments

“There were some people who didn’t like the wolf scene. In particular one very important person. And he said, I don’t understand what this scene is doing in the movie. And I would always say to him, I’m not cutting it. That scene is why I’m making the movie.” - Wes Anderson

"And we stop and we see a wolf on a distant hill, and it’s a really beautiful, beautiful scene. It’s like so heart-warming because it’s just a beautiful moment between these foxes and little animals and this really like mysterious wolf who we’ve heard about the entire movie and who doesn’t talk in this scene and he’s not wearing clothes. He’s kind of, he represents I guess, the wild. He’s a wild wolf and animal, and it’s a beautiful moment where they have this great connection, and in that moment, it really like to me the point of that scene is let’s keep on being free. Let’s keep on being animals. And it’s such an uplifting moment, and like when I’ve seen it with audiences, a bunch of people break into huge cheers and hooting. It’s such an awesome, awesome scene. It really just blows my mind." - Jason Schwartzman

23rd of Sep 2014 •   Comments

20 Facts About Me

  1. My full name is Golan Fernando-Canuzo.
  2. It was originally going to be Kris Kristofferson
  3. I am Pampango and Batangueño
  4. I can understand Kapampangan but unable to speak it
  5. I was first honor from Grade 1 until I was in second year high school
  6. I don’t smoke and will never smoke
  7. Reading horror stories scare me more than watching them in movies
  8. No girlfriend since birth
  9. I stand 6’ 1”, sometimes 6’ 2” idk
  10. I still have my very first teddy bear
  11. I don’t like eggplants. I can’t swallow it and for some reason I will throw up automatically if I detect eggplants in my food
  12. Psychology is my 7th college degree choice (in order: Mass Communication, MedTech, RadTech, Physical Therapy, Political Science, Information Technology and finally, Psychology…but I wish I considered a business related course)
  13. I chose my school based on architecture and the surroundings
  14. I have no ‘best’ friend…
  15. I feel uncomfortable if my jeans aren’t tight on the legs
  16. I find my head to be slightly bigger for my body 
  17. I had a brief emo-phase in fashion followed by a kpop androgyny thing…didn’t look good
  18. I had a crush as a kid on my Kimberly(Power Ranger Pink) action figure. I tied a veil on her head and we got married
  19. I like the smell of lit gasoline
  20. I can sense if a person is bullshiting me
22nd of Sep 2014 •   Comments

Best “Don’t Drink and Drive” ad ever.

22nd of Sep 2014 •   Comments
Pour Another by Nick Hakim

Adding this to the songs-to-slow-dance-to-til-dawn playlist. So peacefully beautiful. I insist that you listen to his EP on Soundcloud!

17th of Sep 2014 •   Comments

Dear UP Pep Squad,

dajayjay:

I hope you are not too heartbroken by your defeat, if you can even call it that.

We UP non-athletes can never know how much effort, time, and sacrifice it takes to become as good as you. But we see it in every toss, every backflip, and every pyramid that you guys execute.

We also saw the disappointment in your faces when we lost to NU (who put on a good show). 

For us, the UP community, you guys are the real winners. I’m not just saying this as an “aww-it’s-ok-there’s-always-next-year” statement. I’m saying this as someone who sees your bold effort of including activism into your routine.

A lot of people from the rival schools are making fun of you for bringing the LGBT and Women’s advocacy into cheer dance. I’ve read the tweets saying "cheerdance ito, hindi rally". But really, apart from you guys, who else can do that? 

Because of you, each Filipino who watches the show (and the unavoidable YouTube uploads) will see that the State University advocates equality.

The LGBT community in the Philippines will find strength in the fact that the premier university respects them enough to include their cause in their cheer dance routine.

Most importantly, the kids who watch the show will be empowered with the knowledge that girls can lift boys and manly boys can dance to Beyonce. 

Your routine was unique, difficult, and significant. It passes on a message, and unlike the other routines, it will be talked about until next year and beyond.

NU may have won the title (deservedly so), but for every person who got your message, you still win.

16th of Sep 2014 •   Comments
I would love to see Rico the Zombie in Freakshow. I’m not sure if I remember correctly, he already starred in a circus freak show themed TV series years ago and in a movie called ‘Carny’. Plus he can do this. And this!

But I guess that’s not bound to happen anytime soon because of the little legal spat between him and FOX. Rico claimed that his copyrighted body art was used without his permission in the scene where Tate (Evan Peters) wore a strikingly similar skeleton make-up as he went on a shooting rampage before committing suicide (AHS: Murder House). The matter is already resolved as of writing, maybe there’s room for hope. There’s so much you could do with the guy!

I would love to see Rico the Zombie in Freakshow. I’m not sure if I remember correctly, he already starred in a circus freak show themed TV series years ago and in a movie called ‘Carny’. Plus he can do this. And this!

But I guess that’s not bound to happen anytime soon because of the little legal spat between him and FOX. Rico claimed that his copyrighted body art was used without his permission in the scene where Tate (Evan Peters) wore a strikingly similar skeleton make-up as he went on a shooting rampage before committing suicide (AHS: Murder House). The matter is already resolved as of writing, maybe there’s room for hope. There’s so much you could do with the guy!

13th of Sep 2014 •   Comments

I. 091214: Happy birthday Bruh!
II. Probiotic Booze
III. College uniform pegs
IV. My pants have deep pockets.

12th of Sep 2014 •   Comments
“Man is the most insane species. He worships an invisible God and destroys a visible Nature. Unaware that this Nature that he has been destroying is this God he’s worshiping.”

— Hubert Reeves. Astrophysicist

12th of Sep 2014 •   Comments